Monday, June 29, 2009

Economy Worldwide

I thought we are just going to do some cleaning at work since it is very slow. But surprisingly, our sister company gave us something to work on. So we are quite busy the whole night.

I will be off from work after tonight for Canada Day week vacation. I will be back on Sunday night and hopefully, we will start to get busy again. While I am on vacation, I will start arranging few things for our vacation for Seattle on September. I have to find a place for our dog while we are gone.

Anyway I will do few blogwalking and few promotion for my webstore. It is slow everywhere but I am glad I received an international order inquiry today. I really hope that the world economy will start to pick up next year. I have a strong feeling that when the world economy starts to get better, my business will start to get its constant flow.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Bad Gossip

That person never did anything bad to me. She never showed me anything that I should be angry about. When I say something I laugh with some teaseful manner, may not be coming from my heart. But when I noticed that people have been making serious talk that can possibly ruin this person's life, it's infair!!

It's their fight and not mine! I am not afraid to be hated by anyone on that place. But I am not going to let them drag me to whatever conflict they may have. Ahhhh, I hate these people.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Daily Thoughts Here

For some reason I was glad to what happen him. That is what he get from being such a hypocrite. She went straight to him to show him how traitor he is for judging, gossiping and ruining others people's life and reputation. I am laughing simply because I am glad what she did to him...

Anyway, it was another beautiful weather here in Toronto. I walk with my dog today and did few household chores. I will not do much for my webstore today since I don't have much time. I have to go to bed because I am done punishing myself for working hard. I will be working on my business one day at a time.

Blogging is one of my stress reliever and I love updating my personal blogs to share my daily living on Earth. If there is someone from my real world is reading this blog, well I dont care what you think!!!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Thankful Day

I walked with my dog again this morning. I unleased her when she dont want to go far and she followed me. I am happy that she is starting to learn how to walk farther and longer now. I really think that she needs to loose some weight as I do... lols..

Anyway, it is very slow at work and it will be slower for the following week. Everybody is getting worried about how the business is really doing. But so far, our big boss assured us that there will be no layoff. I guess that is something that everybody should be thankful for. However, some people cannot just be contented of being just happy and thankful. Some still think that soon, there will be some layoff. They don't seems to be satisfied of what they heard and this create worries to everyone.

I have submitted my websites to few directories as usual. I will do few minutes stretching and soak myself into a relaxing bubblebath after. I really think I should do this at least twice a week. I haven't done this on a regular basis, eversince I got so busy with blogging and on my online business. I got to go and I will try my best to update this blog again tomorrow. Another day to be thankful for. Have a great day to all

Monday, June 22, 2009

Answered Prayers

Pretty quiet night again at work. I guess this is the power of sincere prayers with the help of my fellow Couple's For Christ. It has been one of my agony to feel that the people that I am always with are hating on me. But it's been almost a month since I felt those hatred. One factor I guess is that, we don't have that much time for some discussion since we have different breaktime schedules now.

Anyway, my webstore's traffic is getting better each week. I hope that it will continue to grow until it dominate the keywords that I am using. My blogs have been a lot of help on promoting my products. I will continue to post contents to best describe and promote my products. I hope that when the worldwide economic crisis is over, my online business already have the place on this business world.

I am trying not to mention anything about my business to anyone at work. Some have been laughing on me already. But I dont care. They dont run my life and I dont like to see myself for another 8 years on that place. I am just thankful that my prayers for peacefulness has been answered.

Friday, June 19, 2009

I Dont Care

I had a few fun and some irritating moments at work. The irritating moments I had this time, didn't come from the people that I am always with. This come from people with judgemental, narrow and malicious minds.

First, why does she have to compare how much vacation do I have to file from hers? And why does she care about mine? I dont see the point here, unless she is trying to compare what she got from what I got! I never intend to step on anyone's feet unless she is trying to block my way.

Second, I don't care what they think about me? What they say about me? How they see me as a person. I only care about how God see me. I may not be perfect, but I will never leave my life by what others expect me to be. If they think that I am having an affair or I am someone who can possibly have an affair, well I DONT CARE!!!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Glad Moment

I was so happy when I open my email and received another order notification. I am so happy that I have two orders for this week. My hubby will send the package this afternoon. I hope that the number of orders will continue to grow

I was busy processing the order so I wasn't able to walk with my dog today. I wasn't thinking that much about my business anymore. I focused more on the things that I need to do with my family. However, I never loose my hopes and continue working on my website on a regular basis. But the more I loosen myself on working double time on my business, the more it is improving so far. Almost everyday, I am receiving inquiries and now small orders.

Anyway, it was another quiet and weird night at work. But I am glad to hear from our Big Boss that there will be no layoff or whatsoever. However that volume of orders is slower than usual so they are encouraging everyone to take a vacation with or without pay. I might file a vacation next month and on August to spend more time with my family.

Ahhhh, I am not ready to leave this job yet. I need another 2 to 3 years to pay off our extra bills and save some money before I leave this freaking job. I hope that by this time, my online business is already where I wanted it to be. I feel so thankful!!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

It's Not My Life

I was busy processing two orders yesterday. I was dead tired when I went to bed, that's why I wasn't able to update any of my blogs. I just finished walking with my dog today. I will just submit to about 2 to 3 directories for my webstore and my blogs. Then I will so straight to bed and get a good sleep.

At work, I sometimes can't understand some people's way of thinking. Not because a lot of people believe on some stories, doesn't mean everybody should believe that it is true. I actually don't and can't believe everything that I hear unless I heard it or seen it by my own eyes. Some speculations sometimes may sound true and this can sometimes ruin someones reputation. Beside, I dont really care whether it is true or not because it is None of my business. IT'S NOT MY LIFE!!

Monday, June 15, 2009

Picking Little Pieces

Lovely day today and silent night at work last night. What a lovely weather today. Not too hot and not too cold. I walked with my dog today wearing t-shirt and jogging pants with slippers. I wish the weather will always be like this.

I will blog walk in a bit while I do the laundry. I feel happy since I stop pushing myself on my business. I am filling up all the time I spend on my webstore. Picking all the little pieces of my life, that I have neglected while working double time on my business. I have started organizing and cleaning every part of my house one day at a time. I feel so light looking at my long lost kitchen, dining and bathroom and now it's back on how it should look. I still have a lot more things to work on each day.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Continously Hoping For Dreams

I don't know if it is just a coincidence or what, but after I posted some of my frustrations with my business on one of my blogs, I received a new order notification from my email. I guess God is sending me a message that I should never give up hoping. This also have open up some window for me, on what changes I should make on my webstore.

I ordered one of the ingredients that I will use for the order, and I will pick it up on Tuesady. I will prepare the labels and the packaging material so everything will be ready after I pick up the ingredients. After mixing the the ingredients, I will pack it and mail it.

Well, I feel frustrated but I never give up hoping and I am continously working on my website. It's just that I have loosen myself a little bit on my big hopes and dreams. I just stopped working double time to make it all happen faster than it should be. I realized that I shouldn't push myself too much on this. It will happen when it is meant to happen if it is God's will. And I know very well that God will make it happen.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Sick and Dizzy

I am sure there is somebody and there are people who will be asking why I didn't went to work for two days. I wish they are just concern but sometimes I feel that they are just trying to look some fault on me. Trying to think some lies on me. I don't feel well and I felt dizzy. I went to my doctor last night. I will be waiting for the schedule of my CTScan. I wish this should be enough for them to settle their mind.

I feel a lot better now. I will go out in a bit to have launch with my daughter today, as I promise to spend quality with them every Friday. I also have to buy few things for my business and for our house.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

My Tackless Mouth

Busy but another peaceful night at work. I just had some regret with the words came out from my tackless mouth. I sometimes hate myself for having a tackless mouth. I shouldn't said it infront of a person with a big mouth. I wonder if those words will reach the person that I was refering to. I hate my MOUTH!!!! grrrr!!! It was a joke for me but I am not sure how will the person will take it if she heard it came from my mouth. I didn't mean to sound like a judgemental freak. I always forgot that not everybody will take a joke as just a simple joke. GEEEE!!! Sorry from the bottom of my heart.

This is one of the reasons why I want to quit my job. The company is too big and with so many people, and of course, all have different personalities. I want to have a peaceful life at home or perhaps work in a small company or something.

I am always hoping for the best with my business, that someday this will replace the income I am recieving from my present job. Almost everyday I am receiving inquiries and subscriptions on my webstore. I really hope that someday all these inquiries and subscriptions will turn into gold. So I can quit my job sooner than my plans.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Wishing For The Star

Quiet and peaceful night at work. Ahhh how I wish my nights will always be like this. No sarcastic comments and gestures. But I still feel unhappy and still wanting to work at home. I am still wishing for a star.

Anyway, I feel more free since I loosen myself up in working so hard with my website. Yesterday, I was able to clean many parts of our house and I was able to walk with our dog today. I have decided to leave everything to God and made myself free from worries.

I will just count the days, weeks, months and years untill I fulfill my dreams of paying off our car and some extra bills. Until then, I will ccncentrate on my family and leave a simple life. I might just find a part time job if my business will never get to where it is supposed to be. My two daughters are growing up and they need my attention more than ever.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Leaving Everything To God

I had a good experience at the Couple's For Christ session yesterday. It was a very pleasant experience that made me feel so light and free from worries. However, I still dont feel that I am worthy enough to touch any person's life. Who am I?

I will not be a hypocrite to say that somehow I feel a little bit weird about the actions and doings of the old members of the community. I am not sure how should I feel, react or believe. I feel so happy about them sharing my passions on what I do and what I want in life. Other people's prayers is powerful especially if it is coming from within. I sometimes ask myself if it is just the pride and ego that made me feel this way. But whatever it is, I will always leave everything to God.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Boring Night

I wasn't able to sleep well yesterday probably why I feel so tired at work last night. My feet hurt so much that I can't walk the normal way. I probably need to loose some weight. It is probably the reason why my feet is hurting. lols..

I have nothing much to share since it was pretty boring night for me at work. All night and every night, I am dreaming of my life being out of the standard 8 hours job from Monday to Friday, and be able to make money at home. I envy those mom who work at home. I can't wait until I finish paying our car so I can leave my job. I would like to leave a normal way of life. Money is not important if you are not happy with your everyday life.

Anyway, I have to go in a bit because I have to pick my daughter today for lunch. It's my promise to them to always take them out for lunch every Friday. After that, I will go straight at home and get a long sleep.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Normal Tired Day

When I get ohme from work yesterday, I went straight to my bed to get some sleep because I have to go to my surgeon at 3:15pm. I have to leave the house 2 hours before that, because her clinic is in downtown. I can't bring my car because the parking is too expensive so I have to take the train. I have to wait for two months for the ultrasound's schedule.

I actualy have an ultrasound already two eeks ago with the request of my family doctor, but I still need to see my surgeon and she needs to get a copy of the ultrasound herself. Thats why, I have to have an ultrasound twice for that. I haven't called my family doctor about the result of my ultrasound 2 weeks ago, but the radiologist who took the ultrasound told me that she didn't find any, so I am happy for that. I might try to call my doctor later today for confirmation.

Anyway, it was a normal busy day at work and I am always tired as usual. A lot of funny story around but nothing I have to be seriously involved into. I dont really care about all the story I have been hearing. Sometimes news comes in my way even without asking for it.

Well anyway, I have to wind this up for now. I will update this blog again tomorrow. Maybe something that goes deep into my thoughts. I will see if I have the mood for that.lols..

Monday, June 1, 2009

Hopes For Year 2001

It wan't busy at work last night and I had few funy moments with some of my collegues. This is the part that I will miss the most when I leave this company. Hubby and I have been talking about my plan of quiting my job on year 2011, whether my business will be successful or not. I just have to finish paying our car financing which will end sometimes on year 2011 (I am not sure what month).. .I will just probably finish the whole year 2011 so I can get the whole amount of the Company Annual bonus for the year 2011.

I started my online business hoping that my plan of quiting my job will be earlier, but I dont think it will be possible. I have so many competition and it will take years before my business will get to where it should be. I will continue working on my webstore and hope that before the year 2011 end, my business is already where I want it to be. I can't wait until this day come.